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Name: bekka
Country: United States
State: Missouri
Metro: Nixa
Birthday: 11/15/1989
Gender: Female


Interests: i looove music..some bands that i think are absolutely amazing are ~All American Rejects~Number One Gun~ Copeland~ Anberlin~Hellogoodbye~Senses Fail~ The Blood Brothers~ Fall Out Boy~ The Used~My Chemical Romance~Trust Co.~Sugarcult~Finch~Matchbook Romance~Reliant k~Kill Hannah~Subseven~ TBS~Brand New~Hawthorne Heights(a day in the life)~Mae~This Day and Age~The Format~Rookie of the Year~Socratic~Saosin~ Dead Poetic~Straylight Run~Hidden in Plain View~Thrice~HomeGrown~Acceptance~ Stutterfly~Amber Pacific~Cursive~ Eleazar~ Postal Service~Reggie and the Full Effect~Saves the day~ i can make a mess like nobnody's buisness~Unwritten Law~From First to Last~ Boxcar Racer~Motion City Soundtrack~Thousand Foot Krutch~..and that's all i can think of for now...i hate the casualties
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment


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Member Since: 1/23/2005

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Tuesday, March 06, 2007

they found her the next morning,
wearing the normal night gown.
the atmosphere was cold,
and smelled of dead roses.

they found her the next morning,
after she hadnt any food all week.
yet she managed to dispose of bile,
in the bathroom where she was discovered.

they found her the next morning,
hugging every inch of the comode.
blood stained the porceline
as it ran from her arms.

they found her the next morning,
her body like a rag doll.
with a single note scribbled in pen
lying next to where she died.

"when you find me in the morning,
just know i didnt take my own life.
for what i've been through for the last few years,
was suicide enough.

when you find me in the morning,
don't have pitty or shed a tear,
for i am happier where i am now,
and this is what i deserve.

when you find me in the morning,
may a single thing be clear.
this was not because of a loss of love,
but simply the realization of hate."


Thursday, March 01, 2007

why hello there everyone!

long time no talk!!!

i  wish people still got on this!!! its a lot better than myspace!!!!

you can see who people talk to on this...you dont have to  worry about seceret messages and shit....

ahh!!!! well comment!!!!

byeeeeeeee


Monday, November 20, 2006

wow...

does anyone get on this anymore??????

uhm well if you do..

my life sucks.

how's yours??

 


Wednesday, June 28, 2006

summer sucks....

xanga sucks....

the end


Tuesday, June 20, 2006

i cant sleep at all. my mind is just flooded with these thoughts of you...i look out my window and im just waiting for your car to drive up...then me and you will go sit out on the street and talk about nothing at all for 5 hours straight....i just keep waiting...and waiting for the call. but that never came. and all i can think about when im lying in bed is when you wrap your arms around me and i feel so safe..so secure..and so right. but i dont have that anymore. my tears roll down my cheek and all i can think about is you wiping them away. i lay in bed motionless like i did all those times i tried to not wake you up..when i was wide awake. all i think about is you. i try to get my mind off it and get some sleep but sleep hasnt come easy. even when we were together it was hard to get to sleep...knowing you weren't there...but now its even harder when not only do i have to face the fact that you are not with me now..but that you may never be..i miss you. i miss your eyes and your smile. deep inside i keep telling myself just to go to sleep and everything will be fine in the morning...but when morning comes..and there's still no word...then what...what should i think then?? just wait and everything will be fine later in the day..when you think of me and realize that you need me?...when you think of me and realize you love me and never want to be apart from me?...no..i shouldn't think that..and i wont. i've never cried so hard in my life..my head is pounding with the ugly reminder of how my night just keeps getting "better and better"...with every minute that goes by..i just keep thinking...and waiting...and thinking.....and more waiting... i keep filling my head with false hopes...and everyone telling me the usual comments when people break up just make matters worse....i cant help but think...i wonder what you're doing now..i wonder if you're thinking of me...i wonder...but im sick of wondering...i want to know i just want to call you and ask you flat out..HAVE YOU EVEN THOUGHT OF ME THIS WHOLE TIME...have you thought about me sitting at home..alone..have you thought about me crying because i know i lost the only thing in life that mattered to me...YOU...david thats you...

but ill just continue to wait...



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